Darker corners of His Mind


“You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.” – Morpheus, from The Matrix

Two years later and ¬†still gratefully ¬†venturing infinitesimally deep down His very dark and depraved rabbit hole of degradation, humiliation and objectification, crawling closely behind the Man who collared her almost three years ago. With every trip down the twisting turning seemingly never ending tunnel she begs to be taken on she resurfaces hoping she is one step closer to reaching it’s¬†true nature as His property and object, being stripped slowly and almost always painfully of it’s dignity, humanity and personal¬†autonomy while being degraded, dehumanized and humiliated surrendering all of it’s existence happily, learning it’s place at His White Feet where a brown, inferior fuckpig, animal and object like her belongs.¬†

This journey has not always come easy for me…. As long and she can remember becoming an “object” and “it” has terrified her to the point at times into panic attacks. It has also been not only eye opening slowly being transformed but extremely humiliating leaving this depraved creature in a now constant state of arousal with His training in long term orgasm denial paired with forced edging many times a day. Since her last post she was His puppy brownie a very happy, naive and almost innocent little creature which she enjoyed tremendously opening her mind and heart with easing some fear and building more trust learning He is here 100% leading and guiding her each step of the way.¬†

Looking forward to her next entry delving into the many steps and personas she has been taken to on her very mental and emotional journey becoming His now fuckpig and objects of use for His needs and pleasures. 

Slutpuppy’s day at the park


 

Mushy tuna sandwiches, sighs, smiles, protein bar, drooling, pain,evil grins, tears, long soft kisses, sobbing, blushing, whimpering,crying, ¬†gagging, orgasms, cathartic release, fear, growth…all these things have one thing in common that this depraved brown girl has always feared and hated “Public Play”.¬†

Public Play/ Exposure – Play which involves exposing oneself in public (i.e., flashing). Used for control, humiliation, degradation and all sorts of fear filled activities.

She is a very open slave, depraved and very sexual with very little limits. But the fear of being placed in such a vulnerable place, so much so on some of her profiles in her BDSM commuity she lists it as her only limit. So as she had already previously mentioned to Daddy that she is fearful of this type of play but that she understood as He reminded her that she communicated to Him of her desired hopes that He pushes her limits and
accepts and trusts His training  because she desires to grow in all aspects, mentally, emotionally, physically.

She can sometimes not make enough time when getting her tasks done and preparations for the days they meet, meaning bottom line she has been known to be late on occasion, sorry Daddy. So the morning of their picnic Master advised her that He is giving her sufficient notice and will give her updates of His work day to insure and insist no excuses for being late as His time is already limited and does not appreciate her lack of respect with His time. Needless to say if You know her personally a demand not to be late will usually put her in a slight panic knowing Daddy always makes her accountable for breaking rules or requests with punishment without mercy to show retribution for her actions and hopefully learn something through it. So she had a billion things to do before date so she got to them and got them done early, (hmmm funny how quickly she gets things done when Master demands it hehehehe) So she decided she would prep lunch so that when He was on His way she would leave at same time and arrive first. The menu for lunch? Tuna sandwiches, her not being a fan of tuna didn’t realize that mushy fish made mushier with mayo and mustard then put on bread and left to sit for too long ends up being a mushy bread, mushy fish mess, hahaahaha, she of course apologized to Him that along with the mushy mess she brought a limited amount of napkins, so her nerves were starting to get the best of her along with the thought of Daddy hoping to push her limits decides to take her down that rabbit hole of complete humiliation and degradation.¬†Fidget, sigh, nervous smiles that are so hard not to notice and will ALWAYS push a ¬†Man like her Daddy to torment her further so it begins…..

As she sat sipping her drink watching Him eat and feeling so incredibly happy to be there with Him He asks, You are not eating? Her response was she already ate not realizing that was probably rude to not wait to enjoy a meal with Him sooo at that point she grabbed her protein bar she had brought in ¬†case she got hungry and began to eat that, now she just has to mention that these bars her son calls her twig and tree bark bars as they are very dry and packed with nuts and are very hard to chew requiring small bites be taken. Daddy not happy with her lunch answer took bar from her, ¬†broke it into pieces and began to hand feed His happy dumb puppy which of course got her hot and bothered, gently taking a few pieces from palm of His hand began chewing and chewing and chewing, hand in face again, “eat more” again she daintily takes more pieces into her mouth struggling to chew and swallow what she had in there already hahahahhha, Him just watching her chomp not so daintily anymore on her tree bark bars, starting to feel panicked as He begins to break more up, “eat more” now she is struggling to get the rest into her mouth without making a mess of His hands, FAIL, chew, whimper, chew, chew again Him looking over at her not saying a word, needless to say her lip gloss was not smeared on her chin, bits and pieces of bark stuck in it, chocolate smeared in her cleavage along with more bark falling out of her mouth as she tried to get that damn tree chewed up and swallowed, then it happened, He shows her His hand, chocolate alll over palm of hand, fingers and at base of His long fingers, “clean my hand” chew, chew, chew, insert fingers into her mouth, lick, lick, smearing more on His already soiled hand, panic sets in as a large group of a men’s baseball team are arriving to practice, many of them walking in from of the car, it took a bit more time but she finishes the tree and opens up to show Daddy, now back to the task of properly cleaning His hand, and of course we all know that the proper way to clean chocolate from the base of long fingers is to shove fingers down her throat so she can reach the chocolate, gag, gag, cough, whimpers. As His other hand gets a handful of her hair at nape of her neck she begins to panic knowing that is when the real fun begins as He begins to push her head from behind while the other hand is pushed further down her throat, choke, gag, drool, tears, moan, the struggle begins and her headspace begins to change as she looks deeply into His eyes, seeing the dark desires, the sadistic enjoyment and it happens, the people playing baseball, the cars driving back and forth are not there, it is just His eyes, at that point not even sound is remembered, just the struggle and depraved need to be more degraded, her sexually desires being horribly challenged as she was under orgasm denial for which seemed like months….squirm, gag, grind, whimper, moan as He of course laughs at, finally pulling out His hand content with her hand job. He of course now has her at a point of no return for her, a point of sexual desire and need to release she will do anything for Him to be given the privilege of having His orgasms as they are no longer hers but His and He determines when and where she cums of course being only when it is going to ¬†amuse and please Him to watch her depraved, dark state of mind push her to new lows to satisfy her insatiable and greedy fuckhole.¬†

She at this point does remember her being asked if she could cum just hearing His voice and of course being required to bark her responses, bark, bark, whimper, squirm, His eyes looking right through her….. “you have seven minutes to cum five times slut, and yes You can touch Your slimy fuckhole to accomlish it, she not even caring now who might be ears distance of hearing her, reaches into her dripping mess and begins rubbing her little slippery clit, fingers finding their way up her slippery fuckhole, squirm, moan, fast breaths, eyes closed she is abruptly brought back to reality with a slap to her face,” bitch eyes open at all times do not look away or close them again” HUGE STRUGGLE FOR HER!!!! yet it does not matter within a few seconds first orgasms racks her body, twist, grind, pant, moan and as she does again seeing the look in His eyes loving every minute that she will so easily forget her huge fear and writhe in the car in pleasure to please Him and the obvious, to finally get sexual release. “number five Master thank You” in a small breathless voice, eyes glazed, mind spinning, fuckhole still spasming. She is now trying hard to remember what He was asking her, just remembering He was talking to her.¬†

Head spinning, eyes closing, he takes her into His arms, head in His chest beginning to breathing almost back to normal and a new phase begins of her introduction to His degrading version of take Your puppy to the park  game of Public Play, if cuming loudly, jerking and moaning did not have her on her way to the release she gets with deep humiliation, a cathartic release, loss of control of her emotions as she realizes what she has just done willingly for Him feeling now the pain He is now inflicting on her nipple just put her there, pain, pain, whince, eyes closed, panting like the bitch she is with both pain and pleasure now racking her body. She is one that needs to be taken to a point of such relentless pain that she is reduced to a sobbing grateful calling out for her Daddy in between sobs, finally releasing all that she holds in her mind and heart. Sobbing and calling for Him He knows she is there, the destination He loves to take her to and that she needs to cleanse her mind and heart. After she calms down honestly she does not remember much of anything else but the most amazing, tender, slow loving kisses He gives her, so tender and having such a huge contrast as the look of sadistic pleasure He had seconds ago has her fighting off tears of thanks and love for the Man who took her to another trip down His depraved, dark rabbit hole. Of course her always following willingly knowing it will be a dark place that feeds off of her fears and as racked with fear she may be on the decent comes back safe, full of gratitude and love for Him and already looking forward to growth and conquering her fears with the most amazing Man she knows. Thank You Daddy for again filling her body, mind, heart and soul so perfectly with Your needs and fulfilling hers.

::At Your feet::

brownie….